A Little Lag

I AM SO SORRY! I feel just awful about being gone for so darn long... I know I'm a terrible person and that I deserve to die because your life has been miserable without my punditry/epic prose. I'm back and hopefully now I can be more consistent.

Consistency. I guess that's been my main problem for the past 2-3 years. I'm the type of guy who has a problem with following a rhythm. I don't really get into ruts, I'm more the type who sporadically trips over landmines of joy while mostly just walking through a barren desert of inactivity. Just when things seem to be going well, I shut down, recede, go deep into my innerworkings and hide. I guess it's hereditary. My mother and father both have had mental/emotional issues. I guess I'm just their supersaturated sack of sadness. I do try to contend, and I long so much to be a good friend for others; someone who will lookout for his fellow man, can give good advice, and make you laugh when you're down, but being the chemical maelstrome I am, it just can't be beckoned when it's sometimes necessary.

The same goes for this blog. JUST WHEN I THOUGHT I COULD CONSISTENTLY EXPRESS MYSELF THROUGH A FORUM I ADORE, I throw by the wayside, walk away and curl up in the fetal position, sucking my thumb while rocking back and forth in the corner of my room. I can only hope opening up to my millions of fans like this will help break the cycle. Finally vanquish the beast within, gnawing at my innards, telling me it's too much. I'm not enough to pass muster. OR maybe I'll just fall back into the pit again, but at least you guys know why.

So in conclusion, please forgive my lateness and please be understandingof my swings and my moments of faltering. I'm willing to continue to try to make this work, because you're worth it and I'm the best you ever had.